Leave Me in the Vastness

I want to lose myself in the utter vastness
I want to free dive and be caught by a net of glimmering stars, infinite leaves, and flowers sawn and held together
By the threads of infinity
I want to merge with it all
Until there’s nothing left of me
Name, color, country
Those will be gone
There’s nothing left but the vastness
Which transforms itself from water to darkness
To fire, to ice, to deep cold dark earth
I want it to consume every time inch of me
As I consume every inch of it
I’m no longer flesh or bone
I’m none of it as it is none of me
I’m moving in circles and spirals
Im not letting go, and it doesn’t let me go
It chews me, boils me, freezes me
I am darkness and light at once
I am, and I am not
I feel ecstasy pouring down from it
Into whatever I am
Boundless
Chainless